Hate GoodByes!!

On sunday night after our youth meeting, some of us leaders from the music & youth ministry, and Pastor had a farewell dinner for Jolene & Edward. The're going to the U.K to further their studies.They've been such a blessing to our church and even to me, personally. Jolene's leaving this coming monday(29/8/05), while Edward left today. The dinner on sunday was awesome. We had some good steamboat!! Yeah! I love Steamboat!ate so much till cannot walk...hehe. Then we all went to chill in clarance's house for a while. We then sang "leaving on a jet plane" for them. And then we finally said our last goodbyes to Edward. Debbie was the most emotional...hehe... due t pregnancy i guess. Cant believe that its august already. I remember we were all talking bout them leaving somewhere in january n we were thinking that its so soon! Cant believe that they're really leaving already! Gonna miss them alot!
Woke up on monday morning with a serious body ache and high fever! Definately not the steamboat coz checked with others, and they were fine. But its some stupid viral fever! Feel Like crap!...

Post-Retreat!

I just got back from my CF leadership retreat. Actually i got back yesterday, but no time to blog... hehe... Well, our retreat this time was the best ever!! we had a really good time worshipping god, seeking him, praying, planning for our next sem, and bonding!! I really thank god for my comm, or should i say, 'TEAM'. Really great bunch of ppl. So excited, passionate, n CRAZEE!!! My kinda peeps... ahaha... Love them to heaps.... This new comm is the best i've ever led.
We had our retreat at genting... RIA APARTMENTS!! yup, the haunted one... SERIOUSLY! I'm not kidding, u can ask all those who were with me... It was so freaky! We've got videos of our unfortunate encounters too... muahahaha... But no worries,no figures were caught in the video, although we knew we took some shots of wat we saw(ehmm..scary?). But after analyzing the videos last nite, some of the sounds were captured, but very hard to listen... so soft! Well, i'm tellin ya the truth, but we dun hv much proof. It was seroiusly SPOOKY!!Damn i'm getting the chills by just writing this. Our videos were like 'Blair witch project' or something. A typical american tale of a group of dum teens who knew there was something out there but decided to explore anyway...ahaha... and usually in every of these tales, the black guy dies first! But yay!! i'm alive ahaha. Well, we're all alive actually! we had so much fun, we cooked our own meals n stuff too. We're definately going back there soon...hehe... All our objectives were achieved by the second day early aftrenoon, n we had the rest of the time to juz really relax. Man, it was so awesome. I'm missing it already *sniff* *sniff*....
Cant wait for our team to get into action next sem!
Praise God!!
In The Photo: - (From Left; Joel,Joseph,Sharon(down),me,Joshua(down),Nisha,Jia Yin,Clayton)

what's love?

Love is a selfless desire or affection towards another. Thats wat i understand about love. Of course the bible has the best definition of it. Well, in other words, i totally undertand that if u really love a person, then u would be willing to let the person go in order for his/her benefit or happiness because his/her happiness concerns yours. If you're not able to let the person go, then you're juz being selfish coz you want him/her for your own benefit n happiness, n u care nothing about his/hers. Thats a simple fact that i'm learning to accept at this point of time in my life (although she's not with any1 yet, BUT juz preparing). I'll have to bless her n let her go, eventhough it will hurt seeing her with someone else, n its gonna be real weird listening to her share about her love life, n its gonna b so odd if i were to hang out with her and her lover, n it totally sucks BUT i'll accept it simply coz her happiness is very important to me. I really have no idea how i'm gonna react if that happens SO thats why i'm taking precautions n preparing myself now. Its really tough, but i've gotta do it. So far so good, i guess...

25 one-liners...

1. Give God what's right -- not what's left.
2. Man's way leads to a hopeless end -- God's way leads to an endless hope.
3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.
4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.
5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma -- but never let him be the period.
6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.
7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift.
8. When praying, don't give God instructions -- just report for duty.
9. Don't wait for six strong men to take you to church.
10. We don't change God's message -- His message changes us.
11. The church is prayer-conditioned.
12. When God ordains, He sustains.
13. WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.
14. Plan ahead -- It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.
15. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.
16. Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible.
17. Exercise daily -- walk with the Lord.
18. Never give the devil a ride -- he will always want to drive.
19. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.
20. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.
21. He who angers you controls you.
22. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.
23. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.
24. Be ye fishers of men -- you catch them & He'll clean them.
25. God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

EXAMS!!!!

Oh man, didnt blog for so long coz of exams...
This week has been pretty rough and scarry and stressful and, as usual, COMPLICATED!!
hehe... My first paper (Computer Project Management) was on Tuesday. It was supposed to be a "no prob" paper BUT it sucked!! Not enough time to complete all the questions. The questions weren't all that tough, BUT time juz screwed it up... Anb believe me, i ain't the only one complaining....
I missed my second paper which was supposed to be on wednesday 8am.... Can u believe that?I've never skipped an EXAM b4 even if i was dying, BUT this time i did coz of some stupid stomach disorder.... I didnt sleep the nite b4(as usual b4 exams), then in the morning i was vomitting like crazee and so i only managed to leave my house at 7.45am(bear in mind, exam's at 8am)... Usually it takes me around 15mins to subang if i fly real fast, BUT this time, i reached subang at 9.20am!! coz of the stupid stupid jam in KESAS!!!! arggghhhh!!.. i nvr take kesas, usually take federal BUT of all the days, i decided to try kesas n got stuck in that hell-bound jam!! so, yeah didnt make it for exam... Went n got an MC and called my Program Cordinator n he said nothin to worry, he'll get me a resit... So i thought its all cool.
BUT i was wrong again!! My classmates called me up after the paper n they said that 90% of the tips that our lecturer gave actually came out!! Which means, nothing less than an 'A'.... AND I MISSED IT!!!!! NO!!!!! The best part is, I studied all of it like crazee... its all in my head even till today!!Oh well, Crap happens...
On tuesday, tze had a B-day cum Farewell dinner BUT couldnt go coz was preparing for my so called second paper that i missed...
2mrw's the worst paper of all! Its a resit paper... I failed it last sem. Its my Finance paper n i HATE Calculations!!! The paper was super tough last sem, but i've gotta make sure i pass this time or i'm dead!! So sad, everyone's done with their exams edi since thursday... and i'm still waiting for my paper.... its at 4pm - 7pm 2mrw... can u believe it? so late!! argghhh... Stupid exams...hehe
Oh well, i guess i wont be blogging 2mrw then... hehe... will be back on sunday... ahaha
About life, yeah still confused, everything's still blur and complicated... Lotsa stuff goin on BUT sorry, cant share here... hehehe...

--Difficulties to a Christian are only miracles that have not yet happened!--

Yay!!Sunday!!!

Yeah, I love Sundays! I juz look forward to it everyday! Coz love spending the whole day, if not half the day in church!! Its the best... nothing can beat that!
Well,today i wasn't on the worship team, so woke up later abit *he he*. But woke up a bit too late and reach church 10 mins late!! oh no!! terrible... havent been late for service in years!!
Felt really really bad! BUt church was great! After church, went for lunch with pei yin, jolene, clarance, n some youth. Then we all went down to KL church for Youth! I was in the Youth worship band... We had an awesome time. Great Praise n worship, Great Service!!

I'm really happy bout our Youth BUT i'm not satisfied. I believe that this is just a start of something really great that God's gonna birth through our youth!When we first "re- started" our youth ministry several years ago,it was juz a hand full of us n every meeting was very discouraging as the youth (around 5 of them) were there because they were forced to come, etc... BUT when we re-formed the leadership somewhere in 2003, with new vision, new goals, new HEARTS, our youth group has just exploded n its just the begining!! man, i'm excited bout wats happenin!!

Anyways, after youth we went for tea. Then later at night, i called peiyin n we hung on the phone for hours (as usual) talkin bout some pasts, and some serious stuff, along with some funny stories... Great time conversing... Good stress reliever... hahaha OH no!! exam's on Tuesday!! What am i doin Blogging? i shuld be studying!! ehehehe... Oh man!! *Stress Stress* I'm not worried bout my test on Tuesday actually. Confident in that paper (Com Project Management). Really worried bout my Marketing paper n Wednesday!! None of us (me n classmates) understood a thing our lecturer said through out this sem. The lecturer really sucked at teaching! Most of the time she's not in class also!We're so dead, there's no proper notes to study from... juz gonna do own research! Saturday's paper is FINANCE!!! its my repeat paper! Cant afford to fail it again! Its the WORST!!! I dunno how to do!! damn, i hate FINANCE!!! argghhhh!!!

Oh well, wrote a bit too long edi i guess... hehe... better get back to studyin' now...
*Rush Rush*

I MISS CF!!

Oh man! I totally miss CF. Today's the first friday in months that i've got nothing to do from 1pm-3pm. Usually i would be all stressed, and running around (at the same time loving every moment of it), and making sure the service runs smoothly. And today, i'm just sitting down and studying! oh man! that's so odd. Cant wait for CF to start again next sem. Oh crap, next sem's gonna be so so different. My whole gang wont be there no more... First pei yin left, now Ah ling, tze, loo, KC wont be there too!! :'( Who to mamak with after CF?? but i still got my Comm... Love them to heaps. They're the greatest bunch of ppl. Although we've been through ups n downs BUT i'm so glad that they're a part of ma' team!! Lurv ya guys!! I really dunno how am i gonna react next year when i too have to leave CF for good!! oh crap... dun wanna think about it. I've become too attached to CF.... ahaha.... Well, i can always do a double degree and stay longer... hehehe... or juz be a penganggur.. ahaha.....

Gonna Miss you guys like Crazee!!! (Ah ling, Loo, Tze, Kc) Make sure come visit us sometime aight!! Cya!!!

What a day!!

well, lets see... i woke up at around 9a.m coz couldn't sleep, thinkin bout exams n stuff....
then called pei yin to figure out how to use this blog thingy. All these technology, i ain't familiar wif... ahaha... Complicated stuff.... hehehe....
Thank God for smart ppl like pei yin, i i tell ya, she knows all kinda stuff bout this blog thingy. She said, "its very easy one, juz look at the code n you'll understand". And i'm thinking, i dun understand a thing... hahahaha.... i guess she's got real good patience in learnin' somethin new.... Well, she taught me how to use this thing n how to publish stuff and change ma' settings n bla bla bla.... And finally, here i am!! BLOGGING!!!
hahaha... i feel like a part of the group now... heheheh... Thanks alot ms. lim!! hehe
Anyways, had an 'OK' day today. Spent the whole day studyin' n dreamin' n thinkin'. Then went for Old Testament Challenge in church. The message and topic that we discussed really spoke to me. Was seeking for answers bout lotsa stuff for a long time, tonight's meetin' didnt really give me any answers but it assured me that God's in control no matter how bad or complicated things may be. Test, trials,n complicated times are good for us to shape up, n grow up. Although we always pray4 it to b taken away BUT it ain't gonna b taken away, its needed for us to grow... BUT the good news is, HIS grace is sufficient enough to see me thru. All i gotta do is, All Eyes On Him!! Trust HIM!!

1st Corinthians 13:12 - Now, we see things imperfectly as in a poor mirror, but then, we will see everything with perfect clarity - NLT

Besides that, the person that i care most about, is also goin thru a hard time, n i'm so worried n sad coz not being able to do much other than listen n pray. Really wish i could take all that burden for her. BUT i'm also really glad that she's handling it really well, n that she knows GOD's with her thru it all... Really hope that it will all end soon for her! God is Good!! Jus wanna say, i'll b here for ya if ya need anything! God loves u n so do i !! (u know who u are)
Well, thats it for today!! Cheers!! I'm out!!

1st Blog !!

hey, i'm actually bloggin!!! cant believe it! ahaha
well, its my first post.... still playin' around with this blog...
dun really know how to use it yet.. ahaha